Sometimes, especially this past few weeks, I find myself thinking a lot about my life. The thing about thinking is that it can be both a blessing and a curse. Do you know what I mean? You have to think about your life and what you are doing to make sure you are going on the right path. Yet, on the other hand, thinking about it too much can send you down a spiral which can be hard to get out of.
In today’s post, I will be sharing some of the things that both scares and motivate me.
Isn’t it ironic that the very same things that scare you can be your motivation to keep going?
Not speaking my truth
There are many times in my life that I wonder if what I am doing is truly a reflection of who I am or if I’m just doing what I do to please people or fit in. I don’t think I do but… I know there are definitely times that I wanted to respond in a certain way but I held back because I didn’t want to rock the boat. Whenever I do that I always regret it because I’m the one left feeling frustrated or down. This is especially when dealing with family or friends. The thing about this that scares me is that I don’t want to look back on my life regretting what I didn’t do because I was scared. I want to look back on my life and be able to say yes, I was true to myself. I spoke my truth and I spoke it in a way that got my point across but it didn’t hurt anyone. But I know that’s a tricky balance to keep at times.
Not living my life on my terms
One of the thoughts that freaks me out when I think about it too much is not living my life on my terms. You don’t know how many times, I’ve laid in my bed thinking about this. I’m so afraid that when my life comes to an end all that will flash across my eyes are regrets. This especially has to do with my time and career path. You are problem tired of hearing me say this by now. But the reason I do is it is a major fear in my life. The thought of living my life just existing to go to a job to make money to pay bills and keep the money to commute to work and home, while trying to squeeze in my true passions in life until it’s time for me to retire is scary. Idk about you but I’m not living my life like that. This dream of mine to live my life on my own terms is what keeps me pushing. It’s what drives me to explore new opportunities and find ways to make extra money so that I can get out of this cycle quickly enough so that I can live my life the way I want to.
Not embracing life’s full potential
Life is such a wonderful place. Being alive and healthy is one of the greatest gifts. It would be a shame to not cherish every moment and to enjoy each day. Of course, there will be ups and downs, no one promised that life would be easy or fair. But I don’t want to look back one day only to realise that I missed so many of the small miracles in life because I was too focused on the wrong things. I don’t want to be the timid one that hides from their shadow or the person who is always negative about life. I want to see life through rose-tinted glasses and welcome in the magic of life. I want to always be aware of the daily miracles that life has to offer. I think that by turning our minds to the possibilities, speaking what we want and going after the dream, we can create an awesome life.
I guess my biggest fear is living a life of regrets. I know that I am still young and have my life ahead of me but you never know. This pandemic has rattled the cosy nest I’ve been living in. And though I hope to live a very long and healthy life, I don’t want to put off living my life because there’s a tomorrow.
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Thank you for reading.
So what is something that both scares and motivates you?